“Who the hell are you?!”


So it’s the beginning of another new year. Forget about losing weight, exercising more, or eating healthier. Most people resolve to change certain behaviors but that’s not the most effective way to improve your life. How many times have you vowed to stop smoking or overeating but continued the destructive behavior, despite your desire to stop? Thoughts like, “I HAVE to lose 20 pounds”, “I CAN’T eat sugar today”, or “How can I get through this day without smoking” reflect a fearful feeling of weakness; and in case you forgot, the amount of power in love based thoughts blows away the measly amount of power in fear based thoughts. So let’s take the focus off your actions and look at your vision of yourself for a minute. Does it seem like it’s just easier for some people to accomplish their goals but for you it’s difficult and a bit of a drag? Do you see yourself as lacking the power and discipline to stop overeating, excel in school, or train for a race?

Now gather up all your thoughts that reflect doubt and anxiety and set them aside in the garbage pile. I’m asking you to raise your bar and expect more from yourself this year. So how do you do that?    First of all you have to get your thoughts straight about who you really are.  Every body is born with a piece of God energy inside, a source of power and unconditional love. If you’re not feeling full of inspiration and possibility, it’s just because you’ve buried your God energy under many forms of fear or simply lost touch with it.

Your natural state is love,and power. I believe the reason God gave us part of It is so that we can give It to each other in powerful creative ways, to love and heal each other. Begin to create a true vision of yourself. If you’re into music, raise your vibration and crank up The Who’s “Who are You”,  (I shared it with you below) Let their energy electrify your body and light up your mind. I’ll get you started: YOU are a creative bombshell, a healthy dose of sexual healing, a sparkling star of God’s light put on this Earth on purpose for a purpose! YOU are pregnant with possibility and infused with divine inspiration!

Once your thoughts about yourself are on track you have to look at your attitude. Your attitude reflects your vision of yourself and your attitude determines the amount of  power behind your thoughts. Let’s say he/she rocketed you into a fourth dimension on your first date and hasn’t called yet, or you tried your jeans on and they’re still too tight. Your response, from the highest vision of yourself, would be something like, “I don’t care how I feel today, there’s no way I’m going to criticize (eat, smoke, drink, hurt myself) over it. My circumstances might seem shaky, I don’t know if he’s going to ask me out again, (or if I’ll get the job etc) but one thing I do know?: I am a sight to behold, full of purpose and power, giving and receiving massive doses of love today.” You’ve been shot out of a cannon, you’re flying high into 2014, now who are you going to land your love on and how are you going to do it??


God in Nine Inch Nails


Have you ever lost your mind? I lost mine last month at the Nine Inch Nails concert and found God again deep inside me. I believe there’s a piece of God in every body and the show was an unexpected spiritual experience exposing a painful truth. If you’re into music like I am, it can send chill bumps up your spine and down your legs. It can take your breath away and move you to tears. A spiritual experience isn’t easy to intellectually explain because it’s an experience, not a thought. And I’d rather experience God than think about God any day.

I’ve been a fan since “Pretty Hate Machine”, but hadn’t heard the new album, “Hesitation Marks”. The hypnotic rhythm of “Copy of A” slowly seduced me into an altered state. Trent Reznor’s haunting whisper woke up a part of me that I usually put quickly back to sleep. It seemed like the energy in the music recognized a similar energy in me and drew me into it like a magnet until I felt like I was swimming inside the sounds. I believe God is, among many things, the Creative Intelligence, and it’s through mind numbing music that I feel God vibrating in my core.

I also believe that God is Truth. Trent screamed his with “Terrible Lie”, and it echoed mine. If you’ve ever been deceived by someone to the point of losing your sanity, turn up “Terrible Lie” until it blows your head off, so you don’t have to. The blinding blasts of light from the stage and the blaring truth from Trent’s voice shattered my barrier of denial to expose my now, undeniable truth. Then it hit me that the most painful lies are the ones I tell myself. God had been whispering this truth to me for years, but every time I heard it, I quickly turned away. Well, the whisper turned into a scream at the Staples Center November 8, 2013 and I haven’t looked away this time. The truth is in the tears and I let it out when they closed the show with “Hurt”. I can never get through that song without crying.

I felt so electrified by the power surge from the show that I could’ve run home to the beach from downtown LA . Instead I drove intoxicated, under the influence of Nine Inch Nails, knowing that the experience wasn’t over, it was now a part of me. The truth was loud and instead of looking away, I turned it up. I’m staying awake to my intuition and tuned in to God. This truth set me free to explore a new world and I’m excited.